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Today I quit my job…I’m not sad about it because I have been made to feel unwelcome for a long while, I have been driven to this by constant pressure and comments from management. Depression is an ugly thing and when you are being punished for having it it is even uglier today I walked because tomorrow I was going to be fired. Even though reading through the companies disciplinary policy they are in direct breach of it. And even though my most senior manager hasn’t been able to look me in the eye for months now knowing what she has done is wrong. I left because the job was breaking me and I am glad I did.  

However there is part of me that feels like I let them win like I’m no good and I caved too easily I didn’t I really didn’t I’ve let them chip away at me for months until it reached this point and now I’m the one who lost not only my job but part of my self in the process. 

But I should have done this a long time ago and it was the right call for myself 

What should I do?

I have reached a point in my life where work has broken me I am smashed up and hollowed out and it is all because of work! 

Up until 2 weeks ago I have been on a set working pattern that allowed for a 3 day weekend every week. But that’s all changed now. 

After 2 weeks off I have gone back to 5 days a week working with 2 days off split up through out the week, and I cannot cope. I suffer from depression and it is worse in the winter but honestly it never really goes away. I am not cut out for a 9-5 or a lot of hours stuck in work I’m a free spirit and I need a life that I can be free. 

I have been feeling so boxed in lately and as though the world is against me and I don’t know what I can do about it. I need to be free. 

I want to travel the world and make a life for my self out side of the mundane and boring. Work takes up way to much time and I need to find out how to break that cycle my goal with this is to really become myself and win the ultimate goal of being free. 

Being a millennial 

So all over the internet we hear millennials are self entitled and think everything should fall at our feet. I don’t agree most of my friends have worked hard to get to where we are now and most of us have minimum wage jobs or a few penny’s more!

I finished high school at 16 in July 2007 by September the recession hit, the one that 9 and a half years later we are still in. That is my entire adult life, how can I be expected to do well and be earning well when I was born in to a credit crunch. 

I don’t have a degree I flunked out with 2 years. I have one year left to finish I am determined to get there. I work in a managerial role and get 7.20 an hour for it that is the minimum I can be paid by law.

It all makes us feel that we can’t do anything better, and we will never win!